For the first time in a long time, I really don’t know what’s next.
What a relief!
Yes, I’m used to always knowing what I was going to do. To have a plan. Plenty of ideas would come to me and I’d figure out how to make them happen.
I got tired of that.
It’s very lovely to sit back and, against my compulsion to plan and create and figure out, just let something rise to the surface. How exciting! I now look forward to it like Christmas morning, and enjoy the waiting until it’s here. I know and trust that it’s coming.
This is exactly what I’ve been going thru. I believe I experienced a type of fatigue in December that is only cured by not planning…anything! I am accustomed to knowing what I will do every day, every hour, and god-forbid a mishap occur! That could throw the my whole life in disarray and I have to renegotiate my schedule. I can adapt but I don’t like to be so tightly bound that I have no wiggle room. I’ve decided to plan only one ‘action’ a day. One. Just one. Also, I will not multitask. I will focus on what is in front of me. At first, this seemed impossible but I’ve discovered I am much happier with more down time and more focused attention. My definition of down time is similar to what you describe. I stop, sit, and wait for what calls to me. If I sit for another hour waiting, than that is what I was destined to do. Sit for an hour. Often, I will find my way into a book, a friend will call, or I feel a desire to clean and organize my living space. Each of these is an enjoyable experience because I allowed it to happen from an inspired place.
That’s my experience, too! I want to allow the space for inspiration to bubble up, rather than imposing an idea of it on myself from my list of “half-tos” or “shoulds”. Like you, I am also attempting to focus on whatever is in the moment, as fully as possible. You inspire me! Thanks for sharing how you are exploring this, Rebecca.
What a pleasure to experience your new website. I love it…
I so agree that living in the moment is all that we need to be happy and joyful. Everytime I get ‘stuck’ in what I beleive has to happen I remind myself to “let go” and it works. Thanks for the wonderful inspiration you give.
Thanks, Diane, for sharing your wisdom, too. Glad you enjoy the website!
I had a recent experience of not knowing what was going to happen and I decided to just sit with it and see how it turned out. In my teacher training program I wanted to be first for the practicum, but the sign up sheet went the other direction and I ended up getting the last day instead of the first day. I was disappointed but after I thought about it I realized there must be a reason I didn’t get the spot I wanted. As it turned out, my mother passed away that week and there wouldn’t have been a way for me to deliver my practicum. I’m practicing sitting with things to allow more patience and not making stories up. It’s always amazing how things work out.
For me, too, it has been amazing to see what happens when I let go and let something Greater steer (which it already does, anyway!). The Divine always knows what is best for us. My condolences to you about your mother’s passing… may you always feel her spirit with you. Thank you for sharing your experience!